Keep thinking of (this one of) the (many) thing(s) the alcoholics say: Suit up and show up. I think I get it. I think I get some kind of grounded dignity of recovery in it.
It's a little like the "TCB", the groove of which I've long felt the notion of. Or "of the groove of which I've long felt the notion," if you want to be, like Churchill is rumored to have said (or feigned, for [dry] comic effect) he was, someone who feels that ending a sentence with a preposition is an offense up with which you will not put.
I think I'm cut off on parentheses for a while. They're not good for me, unless in moderation, and I'm seeing signs of an escalation, or maybe having trouble with the moderation.