at this hour of this day i'm trying to stop myself from getting overwhelmed with demands of my own making. talk about setting oneself up for failure---i seemed to have been thinking i ought to be doing more than i could fit in today without hours of chicken-with-its-head-cut-off, and even then it was only gonna earn me an "about time" with a side order of "i'll sleep well tonight." fuck that, you know? so here i am looking around online and breathing slowly, before i go out to, among other places, the hardware store, where i'll see what helpers i can get for the wall repair work i need to do to be able to finish the major painting in the project i've been in the middle of for a while. the catch is i want to spend very little money.
that's cuz a few weeks ago i got this nutty idea you could call a vision that i could be, on january 1st, less in debt than i was on january 1st of this year. not by a whole lot, but by at least a buck, or even a little more, the number crunching revealed. having to buy a car battery was a small setback, but it could still happen. the project around making a run at it, i suspect, may serve mainly as a holiday antidote, or consolation, or alternative focus, but that doesn't mean it couldn't be a good thing in itself.
there's this watercolor i really dig on a café wall, though, and i'm not even gonna tell ya'll what's on the price tag. wonder if it'll still be unsold on january 2nd. in january i'm already figuring to buy me some new shoes.